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Believe,Yellowcard

2005-08-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

Hold On, Good Charlotte

This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go through

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all (hold on)
And you're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?

Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it’s not over...

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on

2005-08-08T13:22:00.000+08:00

8th August 2005

Hi,
have been M.I.A. for a while i guess... am kinda busy with my life. Quick recap on the past few events tt happened during my life...
1. I'm going back to church!
2. I've found out the whole truth about ... Kinda breaks my heart to see her like that.
3. I found out I'm chasing after something that'll never be mine... Her love is like a unicorn, ever so tempting, yet ever so elusive.
4. I'll be a full-fledged NCO today after AP(Annual Parade)
5. I have AP )=
6. I'm learning to play the guitar now... have to get Jus to teach me how to play drums without killing anything withing hearing distance.

So, that's my life so far this past month.

" I suffer in Silence"

Ben.

2005-07-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

11th July 2005

Lol, haven't blogged for some time edi. Well, recent events - I'm now the official ACQ of SJI Ncc-Air, better known as ncc air assistant janitor. Exams are coming up soon , in 7 weeks? Better get down to some studying. September holidays coming up? Friends from KL coming down. Maybe a bbq would be good. Cleaned my roof. Found tons of dead stuff, leaves, flowers, lizards, you name it, I've found it. Lol.

Signing off,
Ben.

2005-06-30T17:07:00.000+08:00

30th June 2005

Holidays are over. 4 weeks of endless fun, camps, and homework. Back to school, surviving so far. Tmr's NCC Day, have to wear No3. to school again. Best part, got chemistry lab tests in the afternoon. Yay. With luck, corrosive acid will spill on the uniform^^ Oh well, have to go, finish off the rest of my homework.

Signing off,
Ben.

2005-06-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

17th June 2005
On the Way Down, Ryan Cabrera

Sick and Tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin' over myself
Goin' nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive

And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you

I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright
Sunlight
On my faceI wake up and yeah, I'm alive

'cause on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you

I was so afraid
Of going under
But now
The weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing

Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted
All that I needed

On the way down
I saw you
And you saved meF
rom myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you

Down, down, down
But I held onto you
Down, down, down
But I held onto you

Hello, Haven't been posting lately cz been real busy lately. Pumping iron, doing work, going for NCC courses...Heh. Today's my bday. Gonna get a skateboard~!^^ Tmr I'm going to KL. Meet up with some friends, enjoy myself, before its back to ... another NCC camp. Oh well, its only four days. But then, 2 weeks of holiday gone due to NCC. T_T

Oh well.

Signing off,
Ben.

2005-05-30T16:21:00.000+08:00

30th May 2005

Holidays are here! 1 Month of pure, unadulterated ... boredom. Heh, juz joking, FUN! Gonna stay at home and sleep and party and sleep and play PC and sleep! too bad half my holiday will be spent in the army. They think I'm "Officer material" . -_^ Right. Anyway, 2 weeks holiday still pretty good. First thing I'm gonna do is... sleep. 30 hour sleeping marathon starts in a few hours.

Signing off,
Ben
P.S. have a happy holiday (=

2005-05-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

25th May 2005

hmm... 13 hours left before PTM[Parents Teachers Meeting]. Meaning i have 13 hours left on earth. I am so dead... Have to see 4 teachers tomorrow, including the HOL... Sienz....

If I do live through tomorrow, I'll probably turn over a new leaf. No more sleeping in class?[ sounds acheivable]. Hand up homework on time[slightly harder]. Maybe I'll even try to study at least 5 weeks before exams[ Hard I know, but no harm in trying.]

Signing off[possibly for the last time],

Ben

2005-05-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

23nd May 2005

Bo pian la... Vesak day holiday also nothing to do...Stay home do work only...

Brother and Dad going out to watch movies, sister out celebrating her tennis championship, mum out shopping... Home Alone. Hmm... home alone maybe isnt so bad after all ... Heh.Cya, go surf porn...

Signing off,
Ben.

P.S. Juz joking abt the porn. Going back to sleep =)

2005-05-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

19th May 2005

Went to watch Star Wars Episode III today. It was worth every cent. Considering the money wasn't mine anyway. Heh. Thank God for friends who are willing to lend a poor guy some cash. Anyway, it was pretty great. Didnt know I liked Sci Fi until now. Lol. Didnt know girls liked it too @_@. Heh.

"Hold me in your arms
never let me go
I want to spend eternity with you"

Wonder if this runs through peoples' minds when they see someone they instantly get enthralled by. Rummaging through my stuff, found this inscription on a small piece of paper. Coindence, isnt it? Today would have been our first year together, Elaine. Too bad we had to go our own ways.

Signing off,
Ben

2005-05-18T16:57:00.000+08:00

18th May 2005
YellowCard,Ocean Avenue

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
sleeping all day and staying up all ... night...

There's a place off the corner of Cherry Street
we would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
sleeping all day and staying up all ... night...

If I could find you now,things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a peice of you that's here with me
it's everywhere I go, everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here... tonight...

If I could find you now, things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
when I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight, not here, not now
We're both looking at the same night sky
keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one last time, somewhere , somehow

If I could find you now, things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

In memory of that special someone who was in my life before I blew it. Elaine, I'm missing you.

2005-05-17T19:03:00.000+08:00

17/05/2005

Heh, haven't posted anything the past few days. Well, have been busy doing stuff, such as homework, school commitments, and tuition. Sometimes I wonder how i even find the time to get onto the net and spend some time talking to my friends. Anyway... I'm probably going to die soon. Failed 5 subjects for my mid year term. Ironically, all the tests I aced in the past few months go to Term3, and everything in Term2 is counted on my common tests results. Oh well... At least at the rate I'm going, I'll probably get "Best Progress" for this year. Heh.

As for RO Iris2 WoE news... Mythos owning Guardians and pals. The tide finally turned against Guardians. Finally, following Citadel and Angels' example, more guilds are starting to oppose Guardians, Vahalla and Mochino. For now, it looks like Mythos and their alliances are at the top again. Thank God for that.

2005-05-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

7th May 2005

Hong Taa's party was great! Heh, had tons of fun there watching Shih Hoong play Dota. Was damned funny to watch him attack an opponent's hero, then back off without killing him. Eng Wei got so bored of waiting for Shih Hoong to die, that he typed to the other players "PAWN MI" , followed by "PAWN MI YOU NOOBS".

Today's WoE was pretty good too, with Byakko getting 3 out of the server's twenty castles. Overall, Mythos gained 25% of the server's castles. Heh, today was Frag Counting Day. Too bad had to use my priest today. Oh well, got 3 frags by punching 3 wizards to death. Sad cases, those guys. Anyway, really tired, with all that fun and ownage today.

Signing Off,
Ben.

2005-05-07T11:46:00.000+08:00

6th May 2005

Nothing really interesting happened today. Except had a headache and got to skip CCA =)
Need an M.C.for that though... Oh well.

Have a party to attend tomorrow. Hong Taa's house, 11am - 4pm, tons of fun and Dota[I hope]. Won't miss this for anything. After that, it's off to IRC to meet the guys for war[RO, in case you don't know, I'm a Ro WoE addict]. Got a competition tomorrow to see which Mythos division gets to capture the most castles. Winner takes 112mil home. Hehe, this is gonna be fun. Byakko's gonna be 112mil richer tomorrow =)

Well, PvP practice now i guess. Cya for now...

Signing off,
Ben.

2005-05-05T15:35:00.000+08:00

5th May 2005.

My blog's first day of existence. Well, today was pretty good. Social Studies test[forgot to study for it]. Probably the only guy in class who finished the paper. Lol. Anyway, exams are over for now. Oops, I mean common tests. If it were exams, we wouldn't have to spend an extra five hours in school.

Sadly, still have to attend night classes. Dammit, wish I had exams instead of common tests. Sometimes being in an independent school just sucks. Well, signing off for now. Need to ponder over the reason of my existance. And in case you haven't noticed, today just isn't my day. No idea why, just isn't my day. Anyway...

signing off,
Ben